Experiment [GROW]


4: experiment [GROW]

What did you do in 2012 that you had never done before? Will you do it again?

I guess I’m not as exciting a person as I thought, because I can’t come up with a single “new” thing I did this year that would prompt the question of whether or not I would do it again.  Either that or I have a very poor memory.



3: stay [LISTEN]

How did you stay in the moment this year?

This is a really difficult question to answer.  Difficult because I don’t think I did stay in the moment this year, at any point, at all.  This year was filled with a lot of anticipation.

At the end of 2011, Dan had just taken on a new job opportunity that was well overdue.  2012 brought the beginning of changes as Dan settled into his job and we adjusted our expectations with respect to, well, everything.  I say it often because I believe it, but growing up is really really hard.   The difficulties rear their ugly head for everyone in different ways.  For me, big decisions often leave me crippled and my head tends to run in every single direction.  Dan’s new job brought both the good and the bad with it, and it was really hard to deal with the constant influx of emotions.  I would say that I spent most of 2012 either looking back or looking forward.

I’d like to make more of a conscious effort to be here, right now, but it’s something I’ve struggled with f.o.r.e.v.e.r.  I’m lucky to have someone in my life who centers me and helps me focus on the now, but being present in this very moment is something I need to work on.

Watch [LIVE]

2: watch [LIVE]

What movie did you see this year that you would recommend to a friend?

Jiro Dreams of Sushi

The movie was captivating in so many ways.  It highlighted the amazing world and culture of sushi.   Seeing well made, quality fresh fish prepared in the most delicate of ways made me reflect on what kind of sushi I eat, where it comes from and what sort of effort it takes to make it to my plate.  I never understood the delicacy of smoking fish, knife techniques or the subtlest of flavors imparted into each piece of fish.  Now I feel as though I understand it a little bit more.

Most importantly though, the film was about a man who strives every day for perfection at a job he absolutely loves.

Jiro: “Once you decide on your occupation… you must immerse yourself in your work. You have to fall in love with your work. Never complain about your job. You must dedicate your life to mastering your skill. That’s the secret of success… and is the key to being regarded honorably.”

That’s a life motto I would love to achieve.  That want and yearning to be better at what you do, to love what you do.  Although right now I cannot fully identify feeling that way about my work, I can identify with wanting to.

If you haven’t seen it, it’s available streaming on Netflix.  I promise you won’t regret it.

Compose [CREATE]

1: compose [CREATE]

Write a haiku for 2012 (bonus: write one for 2013)


Full of promises

Washes over me with love

Still striving for it


Building two to one

Growing as a family

Finding what it means