3: stay [LISTEN]
How did you stay in the moment this year?
This is a really difficult question to answer. Difficult because I don’t think I did stay in the moment this year, at any point, at all. This year was filled with a lot of anticipation.
At the end of 2011, Dan had just taken on a new job opportunity that was well overdue. 2012 brought the beginning of changes as Dan settled into his job and we adjusted our expectations with respect to, well, everything. I say it often because I believe it, but growing up is really really hard. The difficulties rear their ugly head for everyone in different ways. For me, big decisions often leave me crippled and my head tends to run in every single direction. Dan’s new job brought both the good and the bad with it, and it was really hard to deal with the constant influx of emotions. I would say that I spent most of 2012 either looking back or looking forward.
I’d like to make more of a conscious effort to be here, right now, but it’s something I’ve struggled with f.o.r.e.v.e.r. I’m lucky to have someone in my life who centers me and helps me focus on the now, but being present in this very moment is something I need to work on.